DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND

Thanks heaven you have found me!

I know I am not your typical ideal girl, far from your dreamgirl I guess, but thank you very much that you had noticed me, take time to know the real side of me and not become embarrased and walked away. I had always been afraid to let  someone get too close on my comfort zone, but you weaken all my defenses and now I'm experiencing this foreign feeling  that they call LOVE.

You know what I told to myself way back before I met you? ONCE I FOUND YOU I WILL NOT LET YOU GO, YOU'LL BE STUCK WITH ME AND I'LL BE STUCK WITH YOU. I hope I could keep this promise because I only want a single man throughout my life. I  wish to share an everlasting future with you, only you.

And when we get to have a child? Children? I don't know... this stage I am afraid the most... will I be a good mother? The thought of carrying a ball makes me afraid thinking I might make our baby cry while he/she's in my tummy. Please Love don't ask for many kids I only want one or two. I just hope your work isn't far away so you'll be by my side and together we will tackle this step of parenthood.

I know we could not help but have some little or even big arguments throughout our journey, and really, I don't know how to handle them. Will I be the nagging wife that will bicker you until you give up and tell sorry even though I am the one at fault? Or will I just slouch in the corner, or close the door and  cry silently? I hope neither. I want to tell you directly if you are wrong, say sorry to each other, move on and make ourselves better. I will say sorry, hug you so tight and shower you with kisses until you forgive me when we fight.

I hope our kid/s grow up to be just like us. I am not dreaming of a luxurious life--only a contended one. The one where both of us have jobs so we could have a bright future for our kid/s. We may not live in a big house but we are happy on what we have.

I will love you so much from the moon and back and back again and again and again and again  until infinity. Never in my life had I imagined to met a man like you and fall in love on me. I know our relationship will be far from being perfect but no matter how hard our problems will be, I hope you will not let go. I love  you so much and I thank God for giving me a very special and rare gift --- YOU.

I love you so much. ONLY YOU. You will be my last first kiss. You will be my first kiss under the moon, and my last kiss when I sleep at night. 

BUT the Earth is huge and I still don't know where you are. I hope you will find me before my time is over.